WHAT  IS  PAIN  BUT  A  STORY  OF  MERCY?

UNDER CONTSTRUCTION!

canon div. | EU-canon /
legends-lore based ( fallen order-centric )
cal kestis from STAR WARS.
indie, 21+ writer, private & semi-selective, NOVELLA-PREFERRED / MULTI-PARA ONLY
au / oc / duplicate friendly, heavily headcanon-developed.  my portrayal is fully based on my own
inference & conception of kestis's disposition.
est. 2024.  updated 2025
( under construction! )


hello there !!  my name is vincent, but most people know me as vin/vince.  i’m a chef & digital illustrator IRL, a huge fan of star wars & mass effect, and just an awkward dude.  please be gentle with me, as i'm actually quite harmless and shy.  it's good to meet you, and i hope we get to write soon !!PLEASE NOTE:  if we are mutuals here, i'll also follow you from my main muse @stillsolo ( han solo ) & multi @skysaunter ( anakin / suitless vader | luke / starkiller ) unless you are uncomfortable with duplicates.  i'm diagnosed with ocd & i don't like having different dashes.  i will unfollow if my dash is too messy.

 001.  I AM OF AGE.  i will always check out your blog & make sure of your rules. 002.  NO ASSUMPTIONS.  i expect the usual rp etiquette and that includes no godmodding and no assumptions about my muse.  even if it is canon in your muse’s verse, talk to me first.  thanks ! 003.  ESL.  i’m from hong kong; i speak cantonese.  shit might fly over my head.  i’ll ask questions & i’ll make sure about stuff & i may not always understand you; english is challenging & i often struggle with switching tense, but i try my best to suit who i write with.  if you write ‘purple prose’, it's likely i won't even understand you. 004.  INTERACTING. 
if you cannot wait the time required for me to answer your ask / reply to a thread / write a starter, i ask that you do not rp with me at all.  i am very busy; i don’t purposefully ignore anyone.  if you unlike a starter call, i will scrap the starter.
you do not need icons to write with me!  I DON'T CARE about your formatting / blog aesthetic / ( matching ) word count; you DON'T need to look or write fancy to interact with me; my aesthetic is for myself, not for others.
i draw the line at passive replies.  passive replies are one-sided, don’t advance the thread, provide new or useful information for the other character, and play an inactive role by only reacting to 'XYZ' without adding anything proactive.  please be mindful & remember rp is a collaborative writing experience; communication is key & i'm always happy to plot!
i will not write with ‘self-insert’ ocs or outrageously ooc portrayals of canon characters.  it makes me extremely uncomfortable.
please don't SPAM memes / asks without the intent of continuing interaction.  i really didn't come here to write by myself.  i usually continue asks as threads, so always feel free to continue answered asks as threads !!
 005.  CONTROVERSIAL TOPICS / TAGGING. 
do what you will, like what you want, but i am NOT here for abusive relationships, dub-con, or rape, & i never will be.  overall toxic relationships are still up for discussion—but straight-up abuse plots are not.
i DO NOT tolerate (malicious) ship bashing.  we all have our right to preferences, & i don't care for a lot of sw ships too, but openly bullying / shitting on people who enjoy a ship between two consenting adults is intolerable behavior.
this blog contains DARK THEMES such as war, violence, blood/injuries, adult/child slavery, childhood mental/physical abuse, implied death, mental/physical trauma, etc.
i tag all mature content accordingly, including descriptions of graphic warfare, injuries, blood, & even ships of your choosing, so if there's something you want tagged, do let me know!

 006.  SHIPPING.  i love shipping, but it is not a priority!  i portray cal as demiromantic demipansexual & i'm partial to merrin/cal & spyscrapper.  if interactions go well, sure, i'm always down for ships, but please note i’m not really here for only that.  any pre-established friendships/relationships are fine, but i prefer that we at least discuss any pre-established romantic relationships BEFORE interaction.  if you skip this process & assume or force a ship—canon or otherwise—then i will be averse to ship with you from that moment onward.  i prefer building relationships.  if you don’t like that or get tired of 'waiting' for me, unfollow. 007.  EXCLUSIVITY / MAINS.  not really into the idea of private 'cliques' / controlled interactions.  i've had bad experiences.  i just want to write and make friends if at all possible.  i take mains but the speed in which i reply to them isn't really affected.
my only exclusive is and will always be: @techniiciian.
 008.  DUPLICATES / PLAGIARISM.  i welcome ALL duplicates.  i'm up for any kind of twin / duplicate verse, anytime !!  this is a given but please do not take any aspects of my portrayal; do not use me as 'inspiration'; do not use me as a 'template'.  this 'imitation' isn't flattery; it's DISRESPECT.  if i spot one too many strange "similarities", i will come for you, out you, & block you.  there is no excuse i will accept.  i never want to deal with something as soul-crushing as plagiarism again.be proud of your own work, not someone else's.  otherwise what's the point? 009. GENERAL MEDICAL ISSUES. 
I am autistic, physically disabled & visually impaired; i suffer from a CNS disease, anxiety, ADD, & depression.  I AM FULLY DIAGNOSED.  i’m slow & i won’t reply to everything on time. although maladaptive perfectionism is often considered a subtle form of OCD, it is aggressive in my case.  if it isn’t my eyes slowing me down, it’s this, on top of my IRL work.
i am not someone who has time to lurk on the dash, so i often miss starter calls / memes.  please don't ever think i'm ignoring you, especially if we are mutuals!CURRENT 2025 STATUS: LOW / SEMI-SPORADIC ACTIVITY.
 DISCLAIMER:   i don't own STAR WARS or cal kestis
 WRITER ≠ MUSE:   i am not cal kestis.
 PSD / ICON CREDIT:   all icons and graphics were made and/or drawn / manipulated by me.  please do not steal / save my creations.

. cal kestis

FULL NAME:  cal kestis.
NICKNAME[S]/ALIAS: scrapper, wildfire.
D.O.B: 32 BBY.
AGE: 18-23 [ verse dependent. ]
NATIONALITY: coruscanti.
SPECIES: human.
SEX/GENDER: cis male.
SEXUAL ORIENTATION: demiromantic demipansexual.
SPOKEN LANGUAGE: galactic basic, binary.
HEIGHT: 5'8″ | 172 cm / 5’11” | 180 cm.
EYE COLOR: green.
HAIR COLOR: ginger.
TYPE OF HAIR: thick & straight.
SKIN TONE: pale | ( later ) sun-kissed bronze / peachy undertones.
BODY BUILD: ectomorph.
ACCENT: faint coruscanti accent.
VOICE TRAITS: warm & orotund.
PARTNER(S):  —
CHILDREN:  —

GROUP AFFILIATION: jedi order, galactic republic, 13th battalion, scrapper guild, mantis crew.
RANK: jedi padawan ( formerly ), jedi knight.
CLASS: human force user.
ABILITIES/SKILLS: enhanced strength, speed, durability, enhanced senses, various lightsaber combat skills, skilled swordsman, telekinesis, telepathy, mind manipulation, psychometry, energy manipulation ( reflect, redirect, and absorb energy attacks ), regeneration ( mid-low force healing ), repulse, stasis
WEAPONS: lightsaber, blaster.
LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: koboh, nomadic, stationed aboard the mantis.
NEUTRAL: perceptive, awkward, adaptable, versatile, outspoken, independent, resourceful, skeptical, insightful, ethical, wary.
POSITIVE: loyal, protective sensible, humble, courteous, authentic, spirited, adventurous, clever, creative, flexible, dauntless.
NEGATIVE: reckless, self-sacrificing, rebellious, impulsive, insecure, chary.
EMOTIONAL WEAKNESSES: contrite, guileless, martyr-mindset.
EMOTIONAL STRENGTHS: merciful, gentle, understanding, empathetic, compassionate, idealistic, easygoing.
MORAL ALIGNMENT:  chaotic good.
SCARS:  jagged scar tissue runs across his lower and upper lip.  a deep, lengthy slash stretches over his left jawline and marks the bridge of his nose.  a thin white line glances over his left eyebrow.  a large cluster of scar tissue located below his left pectoral.
CYBERNETICS/PROSTHETICS:
HEALTH ISSUES: suffers from c-post-traumatic stress disorder, and struggles with ( co-morbid ) depressive anxiety.
COLOR: cyan & magenta.
ASTROLOGICAL SIGN: cancer.
SIN: wrath.

  •   WARNING:       CONTAINS MAJOR SPOILERS TO THE ENDING OF JEDI SURVIVOR.

  •   IMPORTANT:    i will only say this once: RESPECT my canon for cal kestis.  he is EU-canon / legends-lore based & fallen order-centric.  while i do have survivor-era verses, i simply do not care for survivor's ending; you can read my thoughts on it here.  i am flexible & quite willing to ret-con for alternate universes, but if you disregard my canon / preferences, i will disregard YOU.  it’s just that simple, pal.

. ALT SURVIVOR TIMELINE

  • bode wounds cordova to create a distraction for his escape.

  • during the final confrontation on tanalorr: fearing cal's fall to the dark side, merrin throws up a magick barrier, deflecting cal's second shot & saving bode's life.

  • using the compass, they transport bode to koboh for medical treatment & place him in a bacta tank salvaged from the lucrehulk.

  • he remains in the bacta tank until his condition stabilizes.

  • after days of bacta treatment, bode awakens to find himself bedridden & restrained in a makeshift prison on koboh.  weakened by his chest injury & strapped to the bed, he has no choice but to further explain his actions to cal, revealing more about his motivations & offering a deeper understanding of his situation.

  • the two engage in a tense discussion & eventually reach a compromise.

  • cal agrees not to turn tanalorr’s temple into a fortress & assures bode there will be no additional points of entry—only a single compass, preventing it from falling into the wrong hands.

  • BD-1 stores a backup of the compass as a failsafe in case anything happens to the original.

      IMPORTANT:      unless we've explicitly plotted otherwise, all survivor verses take place during the midway point of the game / timeline, right before the final confrontation with dagan gera !!    v :: CLONE WARS.         Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Ut enim ad minim veniam, quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat. Duis aute irure dolor in reprehenderit in voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur. Excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident, sunt in culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum.    v :: FALLEN ORDER.         Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Ut enim ad minim veniam, quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat. Duis aute irure dolor in reprehenderit in voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur. Excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident, sunt in culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum.    v :: SURVIVOR.         Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Ut enim ad minim veniam, quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat. Duis aute irure dolor in reprehenderit in voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur. Excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident, sunt in culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum.    v :: IMPERIAL.         Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Ut enim ad minim veniam, quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat. Duis aute irure dolor in reprehenderit in voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur. Excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident, sunt in culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum.    v :: WARFRAME.         Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Ut enim ad minim veniam, quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat. Duis aute irure dolor in reprehenderit in voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur. Excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident, sunt in culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum.